cambodia missions 2006
Friday, June 30, 2006 |12:04 AM
its confirmed. it's final. i am going for the cambodia missions trip this sep. yes and i mean it.this sep 2006. dates are from 1-8 sep. mixed feelings about it initially. my heart is that i've always wanted to go for missions in cambodia. weird right? when my unit always had missions in south thailand, indonesia etc. it just doesn't interest me until 1 sunday..i chanced upon the church bulletin and saw--> cambodia missions! WOW!! my heart was like REALLY!! but it wasn't organised by my sub d.a little skeptical i asked my cg leader, james. can he help me ask if i could go? yes. i finally met up with the leader and found out more. many have asked me..why the interest in cambodia?? i guess the heart was set about 2 1/2 years ago. while i was auditing this client, he wrote a book about his missions trip. and this book was on cambodia. many pictures taken. and @ that moment i felt yes, this is the place i want to go for my short term missions.
about 2 years later, my ex-colleague, francine also went cambodia for missions and she was telling me.."this is the real essence of love." how an elegant girl like her, so glam so neat can just go.and when i saw her photos it was like.."hey francine, you so untidy ah!!" but i could felt the love there which is what the world lacks. actually even after i met up with the leader in charge for the cambodia missions last sunday, my heart was still not sure..until now. i am 100% sure. Cambodia here i come in Sep 2006. why?? Francine shared of her cambodia trip exactly after 1 year she went there...and so coincidentally she posted it up now. The timing is just so right as i am deciding whether i really wanted to go this time round. Francine shared this on her blog...
"Sharing with you one of my life's greatest experiences in all of 25 years...
A picture speaks a thousand words, and how much more if its a picture of God's loveliest creation - Man. What sets us apart from a plant or an animal, is the abilty to embrace love in its entirety of giving and receiving, to nurture and in turn, to remember those who have touched us. Love covers a multitude of sins, it forgives and overcomes, transcending all physical, mental and societal barriers.
Hardened by the brutalities of their every-day lives during the reign of the Khmer Rouge regime, Cambodians of those times knew not what it means to love and to be loved. Unfortunately, the emotional scars endured by them did not diminish over time. Every Cambodian kid we met during the trip had a sad story to tell. Violence had become a way of living, a means of survival. Aggression was the face of many a Cambodian child.
However, looking at the pictures of the the Cambodian kids taken during the games we had organised, I am compelled to think otherwise. What I perceive are reflections of hope and innocence, and the willingness to accept love from those who were ready to give.
Take time to consider this... You are born in a country free of strife, blessed with luxury beyond your basic needs, and surrounded by family and friends. Can life be any better? Yours would be a living paradise to any Cambodian kid. But you are still not happy. Until you take a step back from the deafening competition to ponder over the times you have hurt that scumbag of a colleague with your words and actions, the number of times you have missed a family gathering or lost your friend(s) to pettiness... you will never understand joy.
The only price we have to pay for joy is to simply love. To love your neighbour as yourself, and to love that enemy as much as you do, the neighbour. Because love is sacrificial and giving without expecting to receive, you find more contentment in life and through contentment, joy.
Trust me, you've been blessed in more ways than you know. "
I guess it's all these things that confirm the thought yes, i am going. This time round, i am going to leave behind my make up, my beautiful clothes, my gucci bag and get out of my comfort zone. This is what i want to experience, the real essence of love. guess this time round, it will be my turn to be to be reduced to a state of disarray, unkempt hair, mismatched clothes, unflattering poses and the list goes on...But being a mission/volunteer is never about looking glamarous 24/7, it's about reaching out with a genuine heart and soul. *smiles*
arrival of gucci bag
Tuesday, June 27, 2006 |10:18 PM
after waiting for one whole month...the bag has finally arrived..yipee!!!!
gucci bag (view 1)
gucci bag (view 2)
cute bag right?? hiaks hiaks i am so in love with it =)
"The Woman"
|7:04 PM
a little about my daybefore entering into my main topic. Helped linden deliver document for partner's signature and guess what someone thought i am the new secretary.. i wish leh..hahah..and i don't mind..k. anyway was "busy" doing my e-learning today and linden ask me to do planning for next week job..and he was sitting next to me coaching me how to do the planning and he started to use my mouse..and guess what..he was like "HOW DO YOU USE THIS THING???" hahah..."where is the left & right click?" know why?? coz this is my mouse-->
Isn't my mouse amazing?? cute right??
next up was pondering over why i ain't really keen to meet mr t recently. personally, i guess i am tired..physically tired? no. but it's the emotions & feelings which are tired. some how i felt i don't know what he is thinking many times. although he says he likes me..but yet i can't feel any serious-ness in what he says. hmzz =( think i need a break. i guess i already know he isn't the right guy..but i would say this time round he really treats me much better than the last time.
nowback to my main topic..someone send me this powerpoint today entitled -"The Woman" and it's real interesting.
"Woman has strengths that amazes man.
She can handle trouble and carry heavy burdens.
She holds happiness, love and opinions.
She smiles when feeling like screaming.
She sings when she feels like crying, crys when she is happy and laughs when she is afraid.
She fights for what she belives in.
Stand up against injustice.
She doesn’t take “no” for an answer, when she can see a better solution.
She gives herself so her family can thrive.
She takes her friend to the doctor if she is afraid.
Her love is unconditional
She cries when her kids are victorious.
She is happy when her friends do well.
She is glad when she hears of a birth or a wedding.
Her heart is broken when a next of kin or friend dies.
But she finds the strength to get on with life.
She knows that a kiss and a hug can heal a broken heart.
There is only one thing wrong with her
She forgets what she is worth... "
monday bluezzzz
Monday, June 26, 2006 |10:24 PM
monday blues woke up late as usual no surprise. usual habit..wake up check internet for world cup scores. england vs ecuador (1-0), portugal vs netherlands (1-0). England to meet Portugal in the quarter finals. Good luck man! No surprises.. reach work late as usual 930pm.not bad liao..sometimes i reach almost 10am. today very sian coz all the big bosses in. Phil & Danny are back from Houston. Linden, Grace and Thomas all in. plus to make it worst, i am the only consultant around. bored like mad. have to pretend to act busy. with all eyes staring @ me. DAMN!!!...pretending to do e-learning..actually where got so many e-learning for me to do??? argh!!!! finally...@ 430pm, was asked to deliver a document..not bad eh..i get paid $3k+ to be courier girl..haha or just sit around and surf net.come to think of it not bad eh?? hahaha.. (envious?? don't be lah..)
went to the sin-seh today again..stupid leg still swelling..I SWEAR NEVER TO PLAY VOLLEYBALL IN HEELS AGAIN!!! heng heng sin-seh who rub for me is the "tu -di" coz i requested that i didn't want the fat one to rub for me..but no surprises i scream again...and i also kick the person..coz she press on my pain!!! and still laughing..and i scream until they want to put towel over my mouth.hahaha... i wonder when will it heal.. =(. no heels?? no walking?? how can?? k if i granted 2 weeks mc..i can leh..
received an early sms from someone like this:
mr t :" want to meet tonite?"
me :"eh, confirm with ya later bah..."
mr t: " k another day then bah..."
hmz..mr t have been wanting to meet me since last week liao..but it seems i am just too lazy..or i duno why..perhaps..mood swings, leg pain dun feel like moving, but definitely he dun remember that today is monday and i have my blues!!! anyway mr t postpone his diving trip to 14 jul...not bad coz by then he will know whether he be promoted and how much he getting for bonus..and he promised me a good present..hmpf..what should i get??
new purchase
Sunday, June 25, 2006 |9:01 PM
i can't help but post this..as i mentioned in my previous post ytd was shopping with angel and came across many many sale..christian dior, burberrys, gucci etc..in the end...i bio a christian dior wallet..@ taka ytd..but that was the last piece so i didnt take. today consider the whole day and finally i bought it.@ DFS Christian Dior..it's on 30% sale.as many know i have been wallet hunting for close to 1/2 a year..finally saw the sale and buy it..now i know i will only go for season sale else no way..k presenting to u all my CD wallet ===>
cool wallet eh??? now waiting for the arrival of my gucci bag..hope it comes this week :p
make up training, play time with baby & world cup fever
|8:36 AM
yeap its me again.this time i am more regular in my blogs eh. hiaks hiaks.explains my free time. have not got down to baking muffins yet. yesterday was a superb long day for me ah.kick off the day with a visit to the sin seh. what happened?? duno lah..my knee cap pain lah..@ the joints thought it was an old injury because i fell down too many times..then i remember no leh.i think it's because i was playing volleyball in heels on thursday..stupid me..ok! stop laughing.my knee cap was swollen..terrible.and was limping the whole day.not bad eh..still can walk :p
next up..went for a 50 mins make up course..@ the make up store. =).got this course because i purchase it with Citibank and manage to redeem $60 worth of products. in the end, bought a few more stuff like brushes.kinda of learn new things. the girl use green on me..all sorts of green..
Headshot of the make up..nice eh??
following the make up..headed down to paragon, DIN TAI FUNG to meet my friend --> Angel & her baby Jo-anna...wow...this girl really seldom see her..she's back from sydney for holidays for 3 mths.the last time i saw her she was happily married..now she's still happily married but on top of that..she has also become a mother..the joys of being mother. *winks*..we ate quite a few stuff @ DIN TAI FUNG..and went to walk walk...went gucci..coz of the sale..but bought nothing..and finally baby JO-Anna...needed to drink her milk..so we settled down @ coffee bean and it's photo time!!!
Jo-anna feeding time
Jo-anna happily drinking...
Me and Jo-anna (cute eh??)
Jo-anna is smiling =)
Jo-anna preparing to change diapers..
after all these baby time..finally met shireen @ orchard for shepherding..ended the day watching soccer. Germany vs Sweden @ an eating place opp Great World City yes and Germany is through to the quarter finals..and sway thing is they will be meeting Argentina this friday 11pm. pray hard hard!!!
nono..its nothing to do with BGR this time..as usual i was late for work again this morning..no surprises because being such a free person..and having nothing to do in the office..no point going in so early to stare @ the computer with no msn to use..can't blog.
anyway was discussing with lawrence & gary this morning about world cup..our common topic..coz japan lost 4-1 to brazil and it's official czech republic has gone home coz they failed to enter the second round. lost 2-0 to italy..so sad..i can't see my milan baros anymore..today it's South Korea vs Togo but i can't watch coz its too late..
as you all know being such a free person, my habit now is i will head to MPH to read..today was walking around and read a few mags--> Cosmo, Female, FHM..kinda of interesting..then i wandered to other sections and chanced upon --> COOKERY..yes i am saying C-O-O-K-E-R-Y. may seem strange, but i always have this desire to bake muffins, brownies..so i was happily browsing through the cookery books..saw the pictures then drip slavia ah!! then i wanted to grab this damn thick book..turn around look @ the price $40+++ wow!!!! i didn't know cookery books so ex..in the end i pick 2 other books cost me only $4.99 each...it's for baking muffins & scones & pastries.=) decided that i wanted to bake..blue berry muffin.for a start..must head for super market soon liao..who wanna be guinea pig?? *giggles*
life of a zuo bo person
Thursday, June 22, 2006 |11:36 PM
yes..the zuo bo person is none other than me!!! little princess!! hahah i can see some people green with envy. today weather sweltering hot..i woke up early this time..7.23am to be exact..not bad eh..i always can wake up during this weird timing..
had cg today..mr ng arrowed me to do the ice breakers..actually i thought it was easy leh..but then hor..i didn't expect that i need some brain storming..till last night..i still got no idea..the usually smart alec me..thought..this kinda of thing "chicken feet" but then i was @ my wits end when i couldn't come up with anything..finally as i said i very zuo bo in the office..i surf the web and look for "ice breakers" and BOOM!! alot of results came up..next thing was to find a game not too boring and not too rowdy...in the end we played the game "have you ever wanted.." interesting game coz the people are suppose to act out and others guess..=) so glad that i am given the opportunity to serve in a simple task like this..
anyway as usual another week passing and i am still the eng eng person in the office..zuo bo..walk about...go mph read magazine =)...anyone bored and working around shenton way can ask me go coffee k??
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feeling a little sian
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 |9:12 PM
this morning no rain..but as usual i still wake up late. i think now no matter got rain/no rain i still wake up late..wasn't feeling great today..was having a terrible stomach cramp in the morning..shit until cannot stop..wanna beg for help already..was deciding whether to go work anot..@ the end i did..reach office @ 10am.not bad eh??
another boring day in the office with nothing to do except for surfing net.nobody is in..makes it worst.surf until i sian..somemore can't write blog even worst..i think i am becoming a useless BUM!!!i mean it..i miss the times when i was more busy.now too free i feel like i am R-O-T-T-I-N-G!!.anyway was so super sian had a 1 1/2 hrs lunch..eat salad @ this place @ ocean building..nice!!
today is the first day of mango sale. left office @ 515pm and took a cab down to marina square and surprisingly...it's not crowded!! very unusual of a mango sale leh...anyway didn't see anything i fancy..it's kinda of weird coz recently i've not been buying anything much...boo boo..i got an overload of clothes. mum says i must pack..was thinking of giving some away to charity instead leh.what u people reckon??
feeling feeling sian becoz of cg also..it seems like everybody is so divided.no unison @ all. =(.sad right..jarain & i are thinking of closing down the cg blog coz no one blogs @ all.....so sad..helo people wake up!!!! how can our cg be so divided..sometime i wonder in church we talk so much about friendship but then no one is really making the XTRA effort..it's so hard to get someone for dinner. =(..everybody either lazy/busy or i don't know what. sad sad sad...
often misunderstood
Tuesday, June 20, 2006 |9:18 PM
woke up to anothe rainy day again..today rain is heavier and i feel lazier. how i wish the rain comes during the weekend then i can sleep in longer..woke up later than usual today. so in the end reach work @940. today decided not to take the cab don't wanna waste $$. boring day @ work as usual.nothing much to do. sometimes i feel so boredzzz..@ least when i was in external audit..my life is more busy. but now its like so super free i don't know what to do..
Deloitte post peak bash is on..30 June @ Bar None. confirmed my attendance today.quite a handful of people going. I confirm go coz i wanna see how Deloitte people are after work man.
someone help me..my computer is infected with spyware..anyone can help me remove it?? i'm a nerd when it comes to computers so please help!! brother dearest is in HK enjoying himself i suppose. *sigh* how i wish i can be like him. carefree no work but still got $$ coming in..
back to my subject. today got this weird feeling while i was taking a slow walk home. many times i feel very misunderstood by people.friends, strangers etc. people commented that i look fierce, unfriendly, ice queen, dao, "xiao jie"and the list never ends.. and i wish they really know me deeper instead of seeing me on the surface. i dun smile doesn't means i am fierce/unfriendly/dao..i dun smile becoz i dun know you well..i dun like smiling to strangers.another thing is the "xiao jie" thingy. why does everybody thinks i must only have branded stuff. oh well i admit @ times i do go for it.but if you notice many of my stuff are as normal as other people.i dun like tiffany rings hanging around me.. i dun carry and LV bag around. darn i wish people understood me more! i am as real as you see me. AUTHENTIC is the word to describe me. so people don't label me those "unfriendly" terms anymore.
saw "him" online yesterday but didn't talk to him. have been thinking through as to the reasons i like him. is it just based on emotions/feelings/looks? definitely not looks.confirmed + guarantee coz i never felt he was good looking in the first place. if he's good looking i would have notice him when i first got to know him. i seriously don't think it's based on emotions/feelings. well @ least when i see him i dun have the "heart beating unusually fast" syndrome. when i first got to know him it was purely as a friend/brother. that's all.. k no more about him. as usual leave it to God. =) nitez
*playing with slider*
Monday, June 19, 2006 |11:04 PM