Diary~♥

often misunderstood

Tuesday, June 20, 2006 |9:18 PM

woke up to anothe rainy day again..today rain is heavier and i feel lazier. how i wish the rain comes during the weekend then i can sleep in longer..woke up later than usual today. so in the end reach work @940. today decided not to take the cab don't wanna waste $$. boring day @ work as usual.nothing much to do. sometimes i feel so boredzzz..@ least when i was in external audit..my life is more busy. but now its like so super free i don't know what to do..
Deloitte post peak bash is on..30 June @ Bar None. confirmed my attendance today.quite a handful of people going. I confirm go coz i wanna see how Deloitte people are after work man.

someone help me..my computer is infected with spyware..anyone can help me remove it?? i'm a nerd when it comes to computers so please help!! brother dearest is in HK enjoying himself i suppose. *sigh* how i wish i can be like him. carefree no work but still got $$ coming in..

back to my subject. today got this weird feeling while i was taking a slow walk home. many times i feel very misunderstood by people.friends, strangers etc. people commented that i look fierce, unfriendly, ice queen, dao, "xiao jie"and the list never ends.. and i wish they really know me deeper instead of seeing me on the surface. i dun smile doesn't means i am fierce/unfriendly/dao..i dun smile becoz i dun know you well..i dun like smiling to strangers.another thing is the "xiao jie" thingy. why does everybody thinks i must only have branded stuff. oh well i admit @ times i do go for it.but if you notice many of my stuff are as normal as other people.i dun like tiffany rings hanging around me.. i dun carry and LV bag around. darn i wish people understood me more! i am as real as you see me. AUTHENTIC is the word to describe me. so people don't label me those "unfriendly" terms anymore.

saw "him" online yesterday but didn't talk to him. have been thinking through as to the reasons i like him. is it just based on emotions/feelings/looks? definitely not looks.confirmed + guarantee coz i never felt he was good looking in the first place. if he's good looking i would have notice him when i first got to know him. i seriously don't think it's based on emotions/feelings. well @ least when i see him i dun have the "heart beating unusually fast" syndrome. when i first got to know him it was purely as a friend/brother. that's all.. k no more about him. as usual leave it to God. =) nitez