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my tiring friday..

Friday, July 21, 2006 |11:36 PM

these few days have been quite unusual for me..as in i don't need to wait for my alarm to ring before i wake up. actually i have set my alarm to ring @ 715am.but these few days i wake up earlier liao.so a good thing. headed for the most hated Intel stock take today. ever wondered why internal audit consultants and i mean CONSULTANTS have to do stock take?? i wonder?? and guess what today i was responsible for the biggest warehouse. luckily i had gary to help. another thing was luckily the intel personnel was around too. from an original 10%, he told us to reduce it to 5% else i really can't imagine what time i would finish..

met francis back in the office and he broke a news to me which left me disappointed. He told me that David Chew will be taking over the project and the other 2 guys would be pulling out as well. =( this news left me disappointed. not so much that Francis is not leading anymore.More because i won't be able to work with Roy. K a little about Roy.. He's someone who's on this project with me..and i can so he is super cute..besides being a looker, he has a super charming smile and nice features. On top of that, he's intellectual, witty carrying with him a sense of humour. Tall and quite an average size guy. Gentleman..and i would conclude he's just charming..plus best of all a christian guy..whaa..i can say the first time i see him i was already super amazed by him..he's like magnet k...anyway i am disappointed that i can't work with him liao loh. =(

Maybe you all will think...haiz..she's @ it again..but this time..i see the bigger picture. As i shared with Shireen today. I don't deny i am disappointed.in fact very upset. But a few points to note about the attitude this time

1) God knows i am super impressed by him to the fact that i can't concentrate on working. So He has to put a stop to it.So perhaps this time by pulling Roy out of the project, i will be able to focus on doing this project and not focus so much on being so impressed by Roy.

2) As you all know, my missions trip is confirmed in Sep. If Roy continues to be on this project, over these few weeks to the date of my missions, i'll fall deeper into the trap. So in the end, i might not even concentrate on my missions trip and i won't be able to serve fully during this trip. So God wants me to keep my focus.

3) God knows i've become very dependable on Roy..everything i ask him to help me teach me..and i don't put in the heart to do my readings..it's time not depend and start putting heart to read..so God wants me to learn not to depend on him.I've got to learn to read up.

4) God knows i won't pass this round of test..the test of falling in and falling bad..so God wants to protect me from the hurts..God wants to see friendship being built..to replace that kind of admiration.

Not bad right, from the disappointments i can actually turn it around and not entertain the devil's thoughts. very happy in fact..i'll learn to focus then...