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missions update...courage

Sunday, August 06, 2006 |11:12 PM

it's about 1 month to my first missions trip in Cambodia. today we had our pre-departure meeting..and we were asked to intro ourself and our first impression about cambodia. well as all of you know i am actually "intruding" into our Sub-D missions trip. So i was like the odd one sticking out...For most people, they would think that i am super not shy..and i can get along with people easily.but but..you all are WRONG!! by nature if its my first meeting with people..and if i don't know them i am usually kinda of quiet...so of coz there is fear in my heart when i went for the missions pre-departure today..

my first impression of cambodia--> war-torn & poverty. why cambodia?? The country was set in my heart since 2003...why missions?? I want to experience the real essence of love...As a christian, i strongly believe that throughout our lifetime, we must go for at least one mission trip..

In fact when i first met up with Tze Wei & Hillary a few weeks ago, i was still unsure if i really wanted to go..struggles came along the way.. but God made it so clear to me..and the usual me would always tell God.."Cannot just confirm once! Must confirm twice!" plus the confirmation must be clear and i mean real clear..so God made it C-L-E-A-R to me and i say it super clear..first was my friend francine's blog being launched. the second was that as i was reading the "i-weekly" magazine..i came across this article on Cambodia..see how God even use magazines to make his confirmation clear..isn't He amazing??

During our meeting today, we met up with our individual sub-team groups for the trip...and we were required to share about our personal objective and then pray for each other...sharing wasn't much of a problem..praying was more of the problem..I always didn't like praying aloud especially in large groups.. because i have this fear in me..or should i say i felt inadequate..i can't pray long long prayers like the rest..and i always use simple words..To add on to it, this was the first time i am meeting the people..so i was like "what if i can't pray well??" But as i was praying, i was reminded that God looks at the heart..So when i prayed for Tze Wei..i naturally flowed with the HS. PTL i managed to go through the prayer =)..

The next important thing was that the team is suppose to have synchronise prayer every sunday @ 10pm. No specific prayer points but just go as the HS...Today i ask for the following:

1) Right spirit.. As we are going in a team, the spirit of one will affect the rest. I don't want to have the spirit of negativity to set in..because i don't want to pull down the spirit of the group.

2) Unity...We are all joined in one..As a body of Christ we can't be divided..

Finally, the last thing is this. God confirmed the third time to me about the missions trip..As i was doing my QT one day..I came across a particular verse..and @ that point of time..i knew it can't be clearer anymore...let me encourage you with it:

Matther 9:37-38
He said to his disciples, "The harvest is so great, but the workers are so few. So pray to the Lord who is in charge of the harvest; ask him to send out more workers for his fields."