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something special...

Tuesday, August 22, 2006 |8:40 PM

anyone remember about the colleague i mentioned whom i was working happily with until he was taken out of the project?? RL...anyone recall? anyway have been almost 1 mth since he's not on this project already...during this period of time we still talk but not much..the usual me was i was getting abit sianz..anyway the sian-ness do come in but each time this happens i always throw the burden back to God..actually during this mth..i became less dependable on RL for the work..I guess this is trial is something which God really wants to put me through..to strengthen my character bah..

Last night i was just thinking."God how come you can't tell me specifically if there can be any progression??".."How come cannot be like how you speak to me in missions..I want it to be so specific.." In fact, many times it has been like that..S.I.L.E.N.C.E..

Today i told Jarain i was unhappy..why God is silent in this area leh?? How come no answer..How come i can't hear anything..Is God going to do anything?? Can He shut the door if it's not in His will..at least do something..rather then just leave it to my imagination..after the talk..i decided that i should just trust God..because He has the ultimate good for me..so i let this matter rest...

Ho Ho Ho..surprisingly..today as i was going back..i walk back his desk..and he bade me "bye". Pleasantly surprise as he seldom does that(or should i say when i leave he is always not at his desk). Anyway, the thing was actually i proceeded to the ladies before leaving. The surprise was that as i was waiting at the lift lobby he also came out. I couldn't hide my happiness lah =)..but i didn't show it out too. The best thing is as it was a short distance from our office building to the mrt we had short conversation while walking..and i got to know him better.. To sum this up..i really want to thank God for allowing this to happen. =) and i am rest assured my Lord knows best.