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Cambodia missions (5 Sep - 8 Sep 2006) - Part 2

Saturday, September 09, 2006 |5:25 PM

Each individual parts are the thoughts i've written down during the whole trip on each day...

Day 1:
Besides this being my first missions trip, it was also the first time i woke up so early. 4am.. wow! in fact i couldn't really sleep the night before as i was tossing and turing on the bed..wondering what lies ahead of me.."Will God speak to me?" Did my final packing and headed for the airport with Esther (my roommate during the trip). Special thanks to Marsli for fetching us to the airport. Despite the heavy rain Marsli sacrifice her rest and send us to the airport..this is what i call sacrifice. The team met at the airport @ 530am..everyone looking tired. I was first introduce to my new team mate -> Shawn who replace Qian ni.

Upon reaching Cambodia, my heart was filled with excitement.Fear from the day before was gone. What lies ahead for the 4 days i do not know. I just relied on faith that God will carry me through. The group managed to check in only @ 12 noon. After leaving our luggage with the hotel, we proceeded to their fast food chain -> "Lucky Burger" for lunch. This was the first time the team met and shared our personal objective for the trip. For many who know me, I am quite a shy person especially towards people i don't know. I would dare say for me to actually join another sub-d for missions is a break through and for me to share my personal objective with people whom i am meeting for the first/second time was another break through. After lunch, we met in Wanqi & Feili room for briefing. Again, this was a meeting of the whole team and was asked to share my difficulties i faced in coming for this trip. (it was impromptu) Being the shy me in front of a big group, it was yet another break through to share. After the briefing, sharing and praying, some of us headed to different destinations. For those who were in Cambodia for the first time, we visited the Tuol Sleng museum while the rest met up with Theresa (a christian missionary).

The visit to Tuol Sleng was a saddening yet awakening one. A little about the history of Tuol Sleng. "Tuol Sleng" is recognized as the location whre the Democratic Kampuchea (DK) regime, more commonly known was the Khmer Rouge (KR) regime, set up a prison to detain individuals accused of opposing Angkar. About 20,000 people were held as prisoners and only 7 survived. The smell of death hung heavy. As i walked through the individual rooms, exhibits..it made me wonder how can one man be so cruel to another fellow man. Fellow citizens. It came to this conclusion-> Man have sin. It's because of sin that these had happened. If people would have love for each other, these would not have happen..

Rushed back to the hotel to wash up and gather for dinner after that, we headed for Joko's place(an indonesian missionary) for prayer meeting. There were many people. Mostly missionaries. The first challenge came @ this point of time. As the place was over crowded and stuffy, i wasn't really concentrating. In fact, i was a little frustrated and wanted to leave. As i was having these negative feelings, there was something in me asking.." what's the reason you're here for." In fact, i knew this was God's voice. I decided to quieten down my heart and resolute to focus on meeting God. At that point, suddenly the air wasn't that stuffy anymore. The second challenge came when we were told to grab someone and pray for them. Deep in my heart, i have this fear of praying. No choice had to do it..i went up to an Ang Moh..had a short chat with her and asked her " what can i pray for you". As she was sharing with me, my heart feared yet i know it's something that i've got to overcome. After the sharing, i just prayed in faith. and Yes!! i did it..=)

As we headed back to our hotel, i saw how i overcame breakthroughs not by my own strength but by trusting in God..I knew more would breakthroughs would come the next few days..and i am ready and willing to be challenged..