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feeling alittle sian...

Sunday, September 24, 2006 |4:01 PM

it's sunday again..soon it'll be monday.not that i am having my monday blues. but just feeling a little sian at how sometimes people in church don't understand me. well it all started like this.. was with my parents this morning then i receive 2 smses. 1) Jarain - "are you reaching soon?" 2) Shireen - " are you coming for svc?" i guess i am kinda of amazed more at shireen's sms. simple reason. As her sheep, i guess its kinda of obvious that i'll be coming. unless i am really sick or like i have something real important to attend to. else i'll be there. well the point i want to drive at is this: I am not a new believer who needs people to ask each week "will you be coming for service?" i guess the question should be " are you reaching soon?". the misunderstood me once again.

next up was during lunch. the group was discussing about the retreat we are going to have in Oct. Then XQ just pin point at me and say " you mind ubin? alot of mosquitoes." somehow this irritated me. Come on! Many times i feel after being in the church for so long the people still don't understand me. At times i just wanna S-C-R-E-A-M! Perhaps on the outer appearance i may seem like cannot tahan tough conditions. But i guess if compared to many other sisters out there, there are some whose outward appearance don't show but they are even more "ah jie" than me.

sometimes i wonder the difference between my previous cgs and the one now. though the previous cg with andrew had alot of ups and downs but there were more activities involved. right now the current cg, every sunday they all have their own activities. all the meetings and whatever it is lah..it's machiam sunday go to church.after that go back liao. sian haiz...

next up was another not so good news. just chatting with mum a little earlier after my sunday afternoon nap.. apparently she went over to my other uncle's house for a chat. she told me that my uncle who is hospitalise isn't doing well. still not out of ICU. still on medication with all the tubes sticking on him =( things aren't looking fine.

well to end this all these sian-ness a little good news, my cousin is pregnant again. 2 mths. i hope its a boy this time round. the family already has 2 girls so hopefully a boy lah..seems like i really am an auntie liao. can't deny the fact =( *gosh*