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mission possible..

Sunday, September 03, 2006 |11:00 PM

mission possible?? as my readers know..the day for my missions is drawing near..the thought of it scares me but as well as excites me..my heart is flustered..fear + excitement = dependence on God..my equation....

why so flustered, o my soul?? fear loh..seriously lah..i thought my cg members will be damn happy i am away for a week. at least nobody talks in a high pitch tone..no body yak and yak non stop..hahah..so i guess they will be damn happy but today..i am delighted that they actually give me a card leh..so touched (wanna cry liao).. well many of you don't know why i so afraid right?? if anyone is reading this do pray hard hard for me...

1) afraid of my inadequacy of praying..when i see other people they always can pray super long prayers while my prayers are like a little child simple and to the point..i dislike chain prayers..coz while people are praying my mind is generating what to pray..i am afraid i can't use cheam cheam words like james, i can pray long long prayers like shireen i can't pray loud loud like jeremy...

2) come to think of it..it's my first time going for missions and i am going with a group whom i don't know many people..i actually intrude to people's sub d..no andrew korkor around for me to "teh", no shireen for me to whine, no jeremy ah pui to talk to..no joel to tell her i scared..no jarain around for me to rest my head on her shoulder when i am tired..wow...this time i am all alone...who can i depend on...GOd..

3) don't know what to expect and what lies ahead.."will God reveal His direction to me??"..Let me see the picture clearly...

4) I was informed by my sub group leader, Nelson that i am asked to lead worship for one of the morning devotions..i am afraid..my first reaction is CANNOT LAH!! i cannot do it..i never do before..don't want can anot... come to think of it."How come James never let me do before..now suddenly throw me into the deep pool and swim myself.."

as the time draws closer i realise i have many personal struggles..it's really like a spiritual warfare..many obstacles,hurdles..you name it you have it..but i really do believe this time its a great leap of faith...so may my faith be strengthen!!!

aside from the serious stuff..some photos to entertain you all...

For more pics of my cg outing @ mind's cafe on 0209, pictures are available at http://princesssmurfette.multiply.com/photos/album/20

Our xiao mei has finally graduated..many many congrads to Miss Ng Mei Shan...hiaks hiaks...more photos can be obtained from http://princesssmurfette.multiply.com/photos/album/21