Diary~♥

I surrender all..

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 |11:06 PM

i finally finished a book which was given to me about 2 years back by my brother, Andrew. The book entitled "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World" was given to me in 2004 on my 23rd birthday. At that time when Andrew gave me a book. i was like:

"Eh..why book?? u know i don't like reading mah.."

How time flies 2 years have passed and i finally finished it. Through the weeks of reading..i've been constantly reminded of managing my life & balancing it. Being in the Kitchen (serving God)& in the Living Room ( sitting @ the Lord's feet) between these 2, we can strike a balance..and it'll be a continual process.

Recently i've been kinda of discouraged.Over my job. Over BGR. First came the word "ENDURANCE". Next came the word "Perseverance". In the area of my job, what is it that i want? Do i want to stay on or do i want to move on? If i stay on what are the prospects? If i move on, will have so much time to serve God? In the area of BGR, how long more will God answer? When will i see God in the picture? When i hear things like "God is in control" it sounds very cliche..But yet i can't do anything much..but just believe..Why did God give me the word Perseverance??? Is God using the trials to test me? i ponder..i ain't sure also..until i came across this today..

" My strength is not found in how intensely I struggle...but in how completely I surrender." When we come to the end of ourselves and our abilities, when we relinquish our lives, Jesus promises to use them. Little is much when God is in it. Especially if that little something is you and me. He will use you to accomplish gret things on the condition that you believe much more in His Love than in your own weakness.

When we surrender our lives to Jesus Christ, we release the Lord of the Process to do His work. For it is in our weakness that Christ is strong. It is in our inadequacy that we find him more than sufficient. And it is in our willingness to be broek that he brings wholeness - more wholeness and completeness than we ever dreamed possible..