Diary~♥

How can i not trust Him?

Monday, December 18, 2006 |9:10 PM

For the past 2 weeks in church, Michael shared this phase - " God will make a way when there seems to be no way." I knew it was for me..God knows what i am thinking and He knows deep in my heart what i am wishing for. Yet @ this moment i ain't seeing anything. Today while doing QT again it was repeated " In everything by prayer and suppliction with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God." I don't deny i felt angry with God. I don't understand, can't see why the answer seems to be like wait. i also don't know how long must i wait. Then i'll see the door open. Yet when i think about it i know that since God has given me the best gift which is Jesus what will He withhold from me. I don't know and i hope to see the door open soon.

it's about 1 more week before i'll be flying to Shanghai for work =) will be spending the New Year there alone..with no close friends around me. mixed feelings yes true enough i am sad. coz i want to be close to my family and friends. anyway its less than a week to Xmas..and 2007 is coming. I attended the last wedding for 2006..finally..been attending countless weddings since Sep so glad that no more..This last wedding of the year is one which made me teared. why? well i saw how lives are transformed. The groom used to be someone who is super fierce.We use to be in the same CG back in Perth in 2000. AND he scolds me..and calls me names..say i unfriendly and ah lian...and he is someone who fights, races and clubs! From someone who quarrels with me so often to someone who serves in church as a leader i really applaud him. A CHANGED man and i mean it. When i see him now..i can't deny that God is real and yes He is! There is no denial about it. Ben is like a big brother to me..always encouraging & challenging me to do more for God and evaluate & constantly reflect on my own life. Remembering he once told me : " If you have to stand @ the stage to worship God, your public life must reflect your private life." Indeed Ben is a changed man. I appreciate this friendship with him truly. During the wedding also met up with my pastor back from my church in Perth..and so happy to see his younger daughter--> Kateland. Some photos for you all.

Ben & Rika

Kateland

Kateland again