Stretched to my limits
Friday, December 08, 2006 |10:25 PM
it all happened yesterday..if it wasn't for this matter..i wouldn't know that my tolerance limit has progressed to yet another level..a gentle & quiet spirit indeed is in the moulding process..the prayer of "More of Him and less of myself" is answered.."He must increase and i must decrease"..yes it's a tough process..tears were shed.but through it all i know God is glorified and that's what mattered most to me..a little story about what happened:
081206:
It was during a training. Group presentation. My turn to present and this mgr of mine-LN sat in. In fact the training was conducted by our AM - LL. So when it was my turn to present..Mr LN who always had a grudge against me told me to repeat myself twice..then in the end he said:
" Go up in front to write it down."
My mind was like " DAMN U!!!! WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM!! YOU ARE JUST POWER TRIPPING!!" i went up to write..slowly taking my own sweet time...but was super super super BUAY SONG...right @ that moment i almost lost it...i wanted to just flare up and asked him:
"WHAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH YOU??? OR DO YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEM WITH ME??"
My face turned black...there was rage/anger/wrath (whatever you call it) yes. i had it in me and i was just waiting to explode..i didn't explode.neither did i lose it...after the whole thing..i prayed silently in my heart..i told God that i don't wanna let anger remain. Immediately after lunch..i went back to my seat..teared and quickly refered to the bible @ what God said about anger.
This very day i know my limits have been stretched. I've soared unto greater heights with my Lord..I'm glad i didn't lose it =). In fact we had this evaluation form that we had to do about the training and there was this question which asked "How did this training benefit you??"
My answer: " It taught me how to control my temper."
Totally unrelated to the course yet true to the heart..
Yes...Gentle & Quiet Spirit. Fruit of the Holy Spirit.
"He must increase and i must decrease"
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