Diary~♥

ups and downs. life like a roller coaster

Thursday, March 13, 2008 |11:46 PM

how should i start? these few weeks have been real busy..my job search..busy arranging for interviews.in fact i've gone to a few but many only a disappointment..took leave last friday for 3 interviews..but 1 didn't get back..another suppose to get back to me tomorrow but actually that's not my top fav..today went for one. its in the insurance industry so actually alot of things to learn for me. in fact this is one of those which i hope to get because of the specialised industry. in fact location wise also quite okie and another important factor - male boss. I seriously don't really like working with female bosses. I am a woman myself and its because of this i know..Female bosses are troublesome..fussy..and always mood swing. i know it coz i am fussy also..and i have mood swings. Michael Page called me today and said they are putting me up for a position with Temasek Holdings as a Group Accountant. Actually i really hope to get into bigger organisations because the next job i go into i've the intention of staying long so a bigger organisation enables me to rotate within and i won't keep doing the same thing day in day out until things get so mundane and i go brain dead...If someone asked me...i want my career to be a challenging one whereby i am learning new things..so i need to go into a dynamic company...

recently have not been doing well spiritually. very very down. not happy..told jeremy that i didn't want to join cg for the time being. 1 thing is because i get irritated with people easily and tend to lose my patience very fast nowadays. i don't want to fellowship in big group and pretend that i am fine but actually i really am not..can't bring myself to do it. so i choose not to join the big group. another thing is kinda of disappointed with the cg. i guess this is the worst bday i have..i never forget..haiz..i haven even got a bday cake :( really very upset..thinking of ordering a hello kitty cake for myself. luckily my uni friend is cooking for me this sat...haiz i really appreciate her effort loh...hope sat will be a good time of catching up and enjoying her cooking. the greedy me requested for western food both pasta and my fav chicken wings!!!yeah i love chicken wings can eat 10 wings easily...20 also can. fortunately my shepherd never forget me...she treating me to dinner tmw...having steamboat @ suntec with her..i thought she don't care/love me liao...ever since she is married i also seldom have time with her..actually i very upset because i don't spend time with alot of people..i feel very alone in the world..its like nobody understands me..

my dear colleague cum sister in church - liyi (ruth ng) gave me 2 hello kitty scotch tape..very cute and hello kitty writing pad..so thankful for her...i think her language of love is giving gifts leh...i can't bear to use it ..so keep...maybe next time i wrap present for her i'll use it. i think if don't have her in office i have nobody to share how i feel already..thank god she is very understanding. ..