being thankful
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 |11:34 AM
this post is a thanksgiving post quite a controversy from my previous post of anger and complain. i really want to thank God for putting so many sisters into my cg and also for the sister in my cg thanks to them..
i remembered about 1 year ago..i told shireen (my then shepherd) then i really would like to get out of the cg..because there ain't any sisters in the cg and i felt really lonely. there was only her, jarain and me. Shireen was preparing for her wedding last year and she don't really have time for me. while for jarain she is always going for trips/marathons and busy with her life.i felt that i had no sisters to talk to and i hated going for cg. i really hated it..then when jeremy became a cg leader i moved with him. things didn't take a turn for the better. the new cg only jasmine, ks , lihong and me..but ks wouldn't be long because she going to be a tent maker..so leaving jasmine, lihong and me...well i ain't close to lihong and thus its between jasmine and me..but jasmine is so quiet and she is so stay home...so can rarely engage her in any activities...i felt real depressed and must say i hated going for cg because the whole cg felt very "cold"...the thought of even changing church came to my mind..but for some reason..i stayed on in this church..
perhaps God saw that perserverance and He blessed me...late last year, early this year...He gave me loads of sisters in the CG..and i would say sisters that are firm and strong in their word of God. First came our dear joel and Lady Diana, then Lady brought Frieska and Yuli..and subsequently came Sophie. These sisters now bring not only laughter into the cg but they also encourage me alot.
Victimisation @ work
Friday, August 15, 2008 |3:55 PM
today i face victimisation @ my work place. if people have read about my previous post with the thing with my CEO this is a continuation of the victimisation. The story of what happened today:
my cfo was going to have a meeting with the ceo regarding this funds injection which my project company have been asking for the past 2 weeks. my cfo didn't want me to join in the discussion but my ceo wanted to pull me in. the story was that the ceo wanted to know how much was in the bank account of the project company. so i told him RMB xx however, the amount is made up of things like:
1) petty cash;
2) Bank - BOC
3) Bank - RMB
4) Bank - HKD
5) Bank 1 - RMB
then he asked for the bank statement and i replied which bank statement is he referring to (my purpose was to clarify because there were 4 banks as i do not have to give him the wrong one) then he BANGED THE TABLE AND SHOUTED:
"WHAT YOU MEAN WHICH BANK STATEMENT I WANT? AND THEN HE THREATED ME AND SAID THAT AS A JUNIOR STAFF HOW CAN YOU BE LIKE THAT? WHICH HE COULDNT EXACTLY SAY. THEN HE THREATENED ME AND SAID AGAIN YOU CAN LEAVE THE ROOM AND GIVE ME YOUR RESIGNATION LETTER AND LEAVE WITHIN 24 HOURS!"
my cfo interrupted and said:"
CFO:" KH, she is just clarifying."
all in all i would just say as much as this company have lots of work, no accounting system, no job scope i can still tolerate. but what i really can't tolerate is this kind of rudeness in an employer-employee relationship when i did nothing wrong @ all. If a CEO who is so highly educated sitting @ the upper management is behaving in this way, what does it reflect on him? Shouldn't education be cultivating a person to be more cultured and well mannered? Shouldn't there be respect in an employer - employee work relations? Why is there unfair treatment towards singaporeans and other nationalities that he favours?
really "kek sim" with this organisation already..is this the kind of treatment an employee should be getting after putting in effort to help the company?if this is so...is it worthwhile to continue to work in such an organisation? someone tell me...
11 years and counting and happenings throughout the week.
Friday, August 08, 2008 |6:54 PM
Guess this will be an entry of my emotions bah..
i am on leave today due to my laziness plus abit sick lah. in fact when i started this current job i never had a break so it seems like i never did recover from my tiredness from my old job. As i was driving today i was like "whoa..2008 is like 3/4 gone...4 more months to the end of the year and its like 2009...and counting and then i turn 28 late 20s. time flies leh. 10 years ago i went to perth to study and 11 years ago i accepted christ. thanks to watching this play "heaven's gates hell flame". i was sharing with joel (my shepherd) this week that as i reflect i am very blessed. why why why? well i was telling her of the following:
1) i never knew what is hard ship coz i heard many stories of how my friends since young they struggle and when they grow up they really want to make it rich. strive in their career yet for me all my life i have almost everything i want. i told her as a student i had 2,000 to spend..when i started work i was only earning $2,000 haven less CPF!
2) i never really had difficulty in looking for a job since graduation perhaps i did the right course of study - accountancy and its so in demand so ever since graduation i have always been in employment.
3) as a christian - i have always heard about my friends facing persecution but then again i don't know how it is like. because my parents are supportive. my dad is a non christian but he doesn't objects violently to it while i am thankful my mum is a christian so no objections. even when i went for my water bap i didn't even need to tell anymore only after 4 years later i told them and nobody said a single thing. :)
today i was sms-ing with joel and i told her actually i asked god before to take away the desire to shop so that i can cut down on my expenses and i think i learned an important lesson and that is "don't ever anyhow ask God things because He answers loh!!!" why do i say that?? well i realised that not only my desire for shopping is gone even when i go shopping its hard to find things that i like or maybe i am just getting more and more picky. ok enough of my emotional thoughts!!!!
this other part is..today i didn't feel like going to work..so i went to take MC but actually really abit sore throat lah cannot say fake also but i went for a trim and chop off my fringe. well electricity bills are getting more expensive and a trim would save shampoo and save utilities bills!
zi-lian-ing in my own car again..*hee*next up i wanted to update abit on my car...i actually did this mod about 2 months ago..hee i change my exhaust.its damn noisy lah but nice right..well now because my car is lowered + this exhaust my kitty mobile can't take heavy weight people anymore. so sorry.
current mood - still unhappy + disappointed
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