Been feeling quite unhappy recently due to certain events/happenings in the CG and Unit. Due to my unhappiness, i decided that i didn't want to go for the corporate prayer meeting as i really wanted some time alone. In fact the whole of last week, i was feeling very moody.
First of all...My CG:
Right now, my cg is about 15 strong. Half of the people in the group are indonesians and mostly girls. Outwardly, we look very "ra-ra" and laugh alot. It will seem to others that we know each other very well. But deep down, i seriously don't feel that we know each other. Perhaps if you talk about the heart, we are still lacking. I was feeling really upset about it because besides cg/service, i don't really get to see my these sisters. For the past few weeks, i have been pondering this question:
" Is a CG suppose to be like that??"
Today as i went for service, my heart was very heavy. To add to all these, my maid who has been serving my household faithfully for 18 good years left us today. (i meant she went back philippines). I do miss her quite a bit. After all, she took care of me since i was 10 but i do have wonderful memories of her. Ok back to my CG. Besides being very tired, i was kind of dragging my feet to service, the spirit just can't lift to sing. I was like 45 mins late. But it didn't really matter to me. I asked my shepherd where were they sitting and she didn't tell me where. But she told me another row because she wanted me to sit with my sheep. I was really quite pissed with that. Not that i don't want to sit with my sheep but the "tone" which i read the message was "you are instructed to sit with her." As i reached the auditorium and found the row, there was already someone else sitting beside my sheep liao lo..and it pissed me off even more. So i just kept quiet. Even till lunch, i guess i was unusually quiet. But my dear Yulie noticed and she asked me..and i just told her " i will call you tonight."
Just finished a heart to heart talk with Yulie with regards to the issues in the CG and the Unit and we were thinking how can we better deal with the issue in the cg because she also felt the atmosphere isn't quite right. Actually besides the cg and unit things i did tell her some personal stuff lah. But i am quite glad she understood :) Thanks girl.. and remember our pact of what we will do. :)
Next...a little angel
I am yet an auntie to a little one. Yap. one of my cousin from my maternal side just gave birth to a baby girl..right now i have 4 nieces and 1 nephew. This little angel is real BIG! Weighing at 3.61kg but because she is so BIG that's why i dare to carry her.Presenting little baby natalie:
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