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been thinking

Tuesday, October 20, 2009 |1:51 PM

it's the time of the year whereby after the chinese 7th month..wedding invites start to pile up. Till date, i've already got like 4 weddings line up in the month of Dec'09. Will be real broke. By fortunately, i'll be having my AWS so it really helps to compensate a little for the future cash outflow.

oh well..as i receive all the wedding invites, my heart start to ponder..when will it be my turn to give out wedding invites? To ponder upon this question is kind of scary, because i am not even attached yet! To make things worst, my brother will be getting married next May. So..it means i'll be the only child left @ home. :( *sobsob* hmzz..though i feel sad. i've been thinking about this -> i want to get married, but the question is-> why do i want to get married? As i mention before, many people in this world get married for various reasons. Some poeple get married because they are pregnant, some because they want to get out of their house, some because of companionship and the list just goes on and on.

So for me, what's the reason i want to get married? In the past, i will tell people. Well its because most people around me are married, most of my closest friends are married. So i wanna get married. But the question is..so what if all are married? And i really gave thoughts to it till i met an old friend recently @ the bus stop while on the way to work. After talking to her, i found the reason which is:

I want to get married because most of my closest friends are married and many times i feel that because they are married and while i am single, i don't know how to relate to them. When they tell you about their issues of being married, being a single i can't understand and i can't a better way to relate to them when i can't understand their issues. Another thing is my pool of single friends are getting lesser and i see most of my common friends who have their other half are able to go out and do "couple activities" together. More often, i feel sian when i go because i can't do "couple activities", so i end up not going. So it ends up that i drift further and further away with them.

So i am hoping and praying that God will faster give me someone who can complement, appreciate me for who i am and walk this life journey with me.