The past few months have not been the easiest part of my life. For my closer peers will know that I'm going through a phase of asking myself constantly ->  "Do I want to be doing accounting for the rest of my life?" This question has been daunting upon me since Jul this year. I started off applying for Accounting jobs in various industries (with the intention of finding out what's my current market value) . Being a fussy person in the choice of jobs, it made things even more difficult. I was particular about the location and industry. This is what I call being at the "crossroads". I can't remember how many resumes I've sent out, replies I've received and even the number of interviews I've gone for.

To cut the story short, after the numerous interviews for accounting positions, I felt that I wanted to give something else a try but didn't exactly know what it was. Then while surfing JOBSDB one day, I saw this advertisement looking for ex-auditors/accountants looking for career switch. I happily applied and was called up for an interview. While I thought things took a turn, after the interview, the person didn't call me back and I knew it was gone. But I managed to find out more about the industry, what does the person do on a daily basis, what is required of the person and the big players in that industry and started applying for to the big boys. Yes, I got called up for interviews with the big boys and there are some which I went for as many as 5 rounds. Just when things looked rosy, after 5 rounds they told me there wasn't any vacancy at the moment. At that point in time, all these became disheartening.

But I don't know for whatever reason, I went back to look for accounting jobs and at that time, I saw an advertisement for a job in the industry which I liked. Strangely, I also went to apply for a job in the new industry I wanted to join (though it wasn't 1 of the big boys). After a long wait, both jobs offered me a position.

The past 2 weeks have been stressful cause I wasn't sure of which to take. 1 offered stability due to the pay but it was the same old "accounting" job, while another was something which I wanted to try but there are just too many uncertainties. For sure, one thing was the pay factor. I will be taking a BIG pay cut and in fact it worries me. I consulted people around me, spoke to my family and friends in the industry and of course, I prayed about it. Somehow, no matter how hard I pray, it just seems like there wasn't an answer.

One was a stable pay but not something which I really wanted to do, another was something was I really want to give it a shot. I know for sure if I don't try it now, I won't even dare to dream of it in the years to come. But Lord, what about the $$? What if I can't make it in the new industry that I want to try? All these concerns make me so afraid.

Today, while my QT. I decided that I didn't want to even ask God about "which job to choose" since it seems like there won't be an answer and just focus on who God is. Amd you know what happened?  While reading the Daily Devotions which I subscribed to by this author - Rick Warren, this thing came upon me:

"As you enter your Decade of Destiny, it is important that you trust God with your finances. If you want God to bless you financially, you must remain focused on the truth that he is the source of your finances and he is the one who supplies your needs.

What does that mean? It means I'm not looking to an employer for my security. I'm not looking to my savings for security. I'm not looking to anyone or anything other than God to supply my needs."

I like the illustration that he gave " When I turn on the water, I don't really think the water comes from the faucet. I know that the water really comes from a reservoir. It just comes to me through the faucet. In the same way, the income that God wants to give me may come through a job or through something else.

But the source is God.